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A long journey of discovery finally brought me here. Guided by words of wisdom from my Dhosa,i finally found peace from the sickness of spirits. I always felt a presence helping me by on my journey but my focus was to prevail not to seek anwsers, yet i always wondered what it was that pushed me along and gave me strength and determination to go on. My guide told me to go on a path of discovery, consult with nature and seek out the voices of spirits and divine beings. After much study i found a way to communicate with the divine totem spirits. I've spent many days hunting their enemies to acquire the keys stolen from them to allow me to connect at the most intimate level with the totem animals to seek their wisdom. Ju Jak was the first obvious choice being my god but it failed to anwser. Hyun Moo was next with also no response. Finally the most unexpected one a Chung ryong roared in my mind as i danced around a fire holding onto his key throwing dirt in the air making the fire sparkle with the bits of old leaves and bark falling down into the flames. The voice was clear, it asked me to chose a key and throw it into the fire. In an instant i was conflicted, wind or heaven? Those were two choices that immidiately made sense. I threw heaven and suddenly the visions started.... I woke up on a small beach, with lots of rocks and mountains around me. A raven flew by towards what looked like a path between the trees leading away from the ocean. I followed his path and I recall most vividly coming upon a small pebble on the bottom of a magnificent mountain. I sat and contemplated on my situation with raven long gone. I found peace and meaning, the pebble represented my humble start and the mountain is life to traverse still. Pebble and the mountain vision stuck deep in my mind. I fell asleep.... I woke up again, this time in the desert, sand was all i could see. I felt sore and burnt, my eyes were dry and vision blurry. I looked around and i saw a snake sliding glamoursly down the sand dunes into a dark cool cave. The cave! It was exactly what i needed to get away from the heat but the more i struggled to get closed the further it got away. Resigned, i looked at the snake slowly but with little effort making its way toward the cave. Was this another lesson? Many things will take time, rushing can make things worse. Just like sand falling down in the hour glass, slow, with ease but with neverending purpose. I learnt from the snake and slid down the dunes slowly towards the cave, i dont recall getting there as i passed out and woke up on the rocks inside the cave. The voice of Chung ryong was echoing in my mind urging me to go on. I stood up and started a fire, throwing tree branches i found in the cave. I saw them come alive in the flame with the voice telling me "In death there is life, watch the flames grow as they devour the living". I knew the tree branch and fire was symbolism of circle of life but where did i fit in this? Again it was a raven that came by and perched on the side of the cave again. It croaked loudly, flapped its wings and flew off to a nearby rock where it perched itself looking at me. I stook up and followed slowly, tired from my journey i looked outside. There was no desert, the air was thin, the clouds were below. This was the top of the mountain. Was i a live, was this heaven? I recall most vividly the water dripping down the mountain cliff, giving life to things below us. I sat and watched, as i listened to the water drops falling onto the rocks below i meditated and suddenly heard a howling of dogs... When i came out of my trance, i held an old bone in my hand, my eyes opened slowly to the scortching sunlight and i slowly started to make out a figure in front of me. The voice echoed in my head again... It was Chung ryong! "You seek out your spirit animal? Look ahead and pay respect" Once i opened my eyes i saw a majestic white wolf sitting few paces in front of me looking curiously at me | |